like a b-movie, you linger
in the back of my closet
not yet ready to be disposed of –
for there is still
in my peripheral vision,
rape jokes about a photo of a girl passed out drunk on the ground aren’t fun.
they are sick and macabre.
i hope one day, someone will put a mirror in front of you… to show you how wrong you are to call yourselves ‘human beings’.
but honestly, i doubt you would even see the truth… and end up admiring your haircuts.
i won’t even call you animals, because animals are certainly more evolved than you.
i hope you fall flat on your faces for your ignorance.
a pissed off individual
you have haunted me for quite a while now.
this morning, i woke up feeling something… extraordinary.
the anger was gone.
i have no idea how long it has been.
it feels like a lifetime.
i always figured i would feel somewhat naked without it, but i don’t. it just feels… lighter somehow. i like it.
so, after receiving such a great gift, i stepped up and took the newfound opportunity.
i wrote something.
i got rid of the last few scraps of hurt still floating around in my mind. it felt… good. those words out there, no longer sharpened and shaped by anger… i have to admit i was a bit proud of myself.
i said what i wanted to say. what needed to be said.
i paved the road for someone… and what that someone makes of it… no longer up to me.
i removed a burden not meant for me to carry. sweet relief.
my dear past, i want to thank you.
thank you for finally letting me slip out of your grasp… for letting me see, that there is something else waiting for me. something different from painful memories. it is such a good feeling to start blinking again.
thank you for letting me wake up today… feeling like this.
thank you for letting go of me.
the former fist of anger
too sudden for a parting gift.
his scent will not
gratitude will stay;
the hot-blooded companion
made the sting of wounds
i owe you…
i owe you…
i will never forget
how your power
fueled my will
now, i may float
and enjoy the peace
of shallower, safer waters.
because of you, my companion…
anger turns to sickness,
body feels its weight
but forgiveness… still a million miles away.
i am torn
between peace and chaos
rage tethered to my back
in rapid-hardening cement
while i try
to drag myself
and peace of mind.
it is never easy
to break free
and leave darkness behind.
you were never invited.
how dare you enter here? have you ever heard of trespassing?!?!
we encountered last night… and although i tried really hard to shake you off, you clung to me all day. don’t you have anywhere else to be?!
you’re annoying as hell.
consider this your first and last warning.
if you ever show your ugly face again, i will not be as nice as i am now.
i will get the broom.
and shove the handle up your *beep*.
stay away. i will not say it again.
i will watch for a while.
the facts won’t change –
the adrenaline kick.
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