Technicalities, Submerged.

sitting through this blatant lecture
of how and when and why
i doodle seahorses &
flip my mermaid’s tail – in time
to inward seaweed smiles.

at 8:34am i pray
(through glyphs and flowing ink),
that my hand will always be small enough
to fit into
reality’s gaps.

Dear Stress,

i have been following your movements for a long time now… analyzing, observing, forming my opinion. i have to admit you’re really good at what you’re doing. if you weren’t, there wouldn’t be so many people under your constant influence.

nevertheless, i have bad news for you… i found your “good twin”, your counterpart, a while ago… its name is Calmness.
today i was able to witness it in action… quite remarkable, i have to say. this one outshines you by far and its long-term methods – when it comes to dealing with daily life – are really impressive.
you two must have been separated at birth, for people who know you usually don’t know the other. do you know Calmness? did you two ever meet? probably not.
i would advise you to get in touch, because if things keep going as they are, you might soon reach the peak of your career… and might plummet straight down afterward. i’m sure a lot of those who spent too much time in your grasp will soon be looking for another solution. you drain people, suck the life out of them… and no one wants that.
you’ll be out of work. period.

so, for the good of all, you might want to go easier on people… oh, and get in touch with your twin – a remarkable fellow, i can assure you. i’m sure there’s a lot to learn when you hear the other side of the story.
i hope you can see the truth in my words and i wish you good luck on your journey.

a former addict


                                                                    yep, it really does seem to be getting Imageworse.
not that i’m not grateful for certain people cleaning up after me while i’m hobbling around on crutches, it’s just getting old. and fast. oh, and swelling, too. of course. damn you, stairs!

it’s tuesday morning and i miss work already, not too long ago i never wanted to set another foot (ha ha) in there ever again and i’m happy that’s no longer the case. things change… when people do.
it doesn’t have to be draining and frustrating, just figuring out not to let it get to you takes some time and effort… i’m glad i did. the health care system isn’t what it used to be – it can be easily compared to assembly-line work now. yes, i know, sounds horrbile, doesn’t it… but unfortunately, that’s how it is. hospitals are tremendously understaffed and no one does have the time to actually care anymore, due to the tight schedule. doesn’t this make the term ‘Health Care System‘ sound kind of ironic?!
the world is moving incredibly fast, the daily pressure keeps building and building and – let’s face it – medical care won’t get any better due to these circumstances. the trick is, not too think about it too much… being a small fish, there’s nothing you can change anyways, all you can do is try to be human in a totally inhuman environment.
A smile goes a long way…”, that is actually quite true. it took me a long time to realize that it all comes back to that. you won’t change a single thing being just a small wheel in a huge mechanism that can be easily replaced, but you can improve your and others’ circumstances immensely just by taking care of the small things. be polite. listen. help without offering too much of yourself. decent human behavior. and yes, a little egoism, too… but i like to call it self-preservation.
how i miss walking the thin line between not caring at all and caring too much and totally nailing it. never thought i could do it, but i can. it’s nice when you can surprise yourself.

i think i’ll hobble back to bed now – too little sleep for me, and since i’m home, i might as well enjoy the luxury of crawling back into my snugly den.

yes, balloon foot, you can come, too. but only because you asked nicely.

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